exam journal 1 and 2

my first exam was on the 27th, which was the indonesian oral
i admit my preparations have been late and lazy, and slow-paced too
i forgot some of my sentence structures and made it sound even more complicated thatn it already was lol
the interview part was very raw but i think i've done everything i could do during the short period before the exam, and yeah, nobody's perfect, and humans are not meant to decide when they're gonna be excellent or not

somehow writing in english feels like torture now
i guess the adrenaline for tomorrow's english exam has kicked in
i dont know why, the more i study from text guides, the more i feel like i havent done enough studying and it makes me feel sad and dissappointed about my slacking-off habit which is unusual
but of course, let's just be positive and hope that everything will turn out fine
i learnt my lesson
for this once, i did.

i don't want to go back because its out of my hand
i dont want to drown myself in regrets because it wont change anything that is done
i dont want to be harsh on myself because im not a limitless robot
i want to be positive for the future
think, do, and act optimistic to whatever would happen
and of course,
gratefully use the best of now

bismillaahirrahmaanirrahiim!